This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don’t want to laugh, because you know it’s not going to help, but you don’t want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it’s falling apart too. You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you’re getting happy again, but you know inside that you’re just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you’re back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can’t help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn’t happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don’t know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you’ve had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you’re to the point where you don’t care who see’s. Because you’ve spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it’s not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, “It will be okay…” But you know it won’t. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You’re still hurt, but you’ve learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don’t hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this…”♥
That awkward moment when yr mom makes fun of you because yr boyfriend dumped you in front of everyone…
This fucking sucks.
I miss him. I hate the fact that I agreed to still be friends with him. Part of me wants to talk to him and be all best friends and act like the past two years never happened, but the truth is I can’t because I love him and no matter how much of a bitch i was to him i knew he still loved me and even if people didn’t believe me or whatever i love him in my own way. You love people the best way you know how. Part of me hates him for making me feel this way, but i understand him. Really I do. I know being with me is not easy because i hate myself too sometimes. I get annoyed at myself all the time and for him to put up with me for two years is something i never would of done. I get that he needs to be his own person and be on his own for a while and all the good stuff, but i don’t want him to forget me because i still want to be with him. I know talking to the guy i used to like was a bad idea, but the thing is we’re just friends and that’s how the guy has always seen me. I just want him to trust me again. i want to fast forward all this pain and uncertainty i feel and just be back safely in his arms. I really think he deserves to be happy i really do, even if its not with me…. but don’t i deserve to be happy too?